My name is Marie Whitmoore formally know as Marie Heart. I was just a normal girl a few years ago, but know I am a vampire slayer. If that isn't interesting enough for you I also live with two vampires. In order to tell you the exciting story of my life I have to first tell you the sad part. The blog entries I will be posting will start all the way at the beginning of my story. No not at my birth, but when my normal world started to turn into the world I only heard in bed time stories. The stories people use to scare kids. Stories about vampires and witches both good and bad. What do you do when you have been living your life in a room full of mirrors. Only seeing the things that effect you in your life. Now those mirrors are being turned into windows. Everything I thought to be true about my life was all one big LIE.
This page consists of my deep thoughts through my life journey ahead.
The Brother
My name is Marie Heart I grew up in Oregon with my family. My dad and mom have been married for 21 years and I have a 17 year old brother named Jake. My family is pretty normal we have family game nights every Friday and movie night every Saturday. Although my brother being a teenage boy always wants to go out he is still forced to go to at least one of them. I have a really good relationship with my brother; he always invites me to hang out with him. We go to the local arcade called Wonderland, it’s kind of like Chuck-E-Cheese and Big Al's had a baby. It’s the big hang out place for teens. It’s funny because my brother always ends up picking up chicks there but doesn’t seem to mind when I am there. I feel like we are more best friends then siblings. We play video games together all the time. My all-time favorite one is Crash Bandicoot on the original PlayStation. We played it a ton when I was younger but then it broke. A few years later my mom got us another one and I cried. I was happy we spent that whole summer playing it. Even though my brother and I are a couple years apart we are still best friends. It’s always been Jake and Marie. We were each other’s only friends. We could count on each other to always be with there for the other. I tell him everything. He helped me get my boyfriend and also get through my first breakup. He bought me a whole pint of ice cream and watched chick flicks with me all night. We are super close and I hope it never changes.
The Betrayal
Okay so today my brother and I were at the arcade and some girl he liked was being so mean to me and called me ugly. My brother didn’t even stand up for me and that’s not even the worst part. He agreed. If this is how my best friend is going to treat me then maybe I just don’t want Jake as my best friend. I can’t replace him as my brother, but I can as a best friend. The betrayal hurts so much. The one person I tell everything to doesn’t even care enough to stand up for me. Apparently my brother would give our relationship up for the first hot girl that talks to him. I don’t think I will ever forgive him for this one. Not only is my self-esteem hurt but I feel like I lost one of the only people I had. It’s going to take a long time to get over this one…If I ever do. Jake broke my trust and that’s not just something that you get back after saying sorry…. He just knocked at my door and asked if I was awake. I didn’t respond, I didn’t feel like talking to him. When I didn’t respond he just said goodnight and he would talk to me tomorrow.
The Avoiding
I got up early today and told my mom I was going shopping. The truth is I was actually in my secret spot. It’s just outside of downtown in this high tree. It’s right outside of an abandoned house. There is this old tree house I came across when I was 6 and got lost on the way home. Ever since then I have used it for a place to think. I would plug my headphones in and sit there for hours listening to my little IPod Shuffle. I had pictures of my family mostly Jake and I all over the walls. It didn’t really help me forget about my brother, but I just closed my eyes and listened to my IPod. Until… Someone climbed up and pulled my headphones out of my ear. I jumped, looked up and to my surprise it was Jake. He explained to me that even since we were younger he has been keeping an eye on me. He knew that there were sometimes I just needed to have time alone, but this time he wasn’t going to let me. He apologized for yesterday and told me how wrong that girl was. He even brought me the same ice cream. It was the same one he bought me when my first boyfriend broke up with me. We spent the rest of the day talking. My brother always knows what to say to cheer me up.
The Starting Point
Today is a beautiful fall morning, the leaves are just starting to change color and the never ending winter rain was starting. I had no idea this was the day that would change everything. My parents had called an emergency family meeting which only happened on two occasions; one we had something huge to celebrate or some bad news. In this case it was a combination of both. My dad, Roger, has just got promoted and is getting transferred to an office in Italy. I am not sure exactly what he does, but I know it makes good money. His new promotion will have him making $1000 a week. He is some sort of business partner now, if I remember correctly he works at an electronics company. My parents told my brother and I that we could stay here and finish school with are friends or go with them. My brother and I were best friends and I couldn't imagine a better life. Living alone with my brother sounds like a never ending party. The ideal life.
The Goodbye
I thought it would be easy, saying goodbye to my parents. The truth was it sucked. I was balling my eyes out the whole day. This is a really far distance between family. I'm going to miss them so much. I will miss all my father daughter days, all my mom and I shopping days. I will miss the little moments we have that mean everything. I wonder if this life I thought would be ideal will measure up to my expectations.
The Change
I thought this life was perfect, ideal, like nothing bad could happen, but I was wrong. Today my life would change terribly. My best friend now wasn't treating me the way he had, the way he should. He was angry with me. Thought it was my fault. The first week we have lived alone without my parents was awesome, but Jake slowly got depressed. He missed my parents so much that he let it destroy him. I told him we could call them, get them back. They could bring us to Italy. My brother refused to listen to me. He said I was the reason they left. This didn't make sense though, if I was the reason they left then why did they invite me to go with them? I didn't believe it, but Jake did. Today started the break in my friendship with my brother that will never be restored. When I returned from school today my brother was on edge. We got into an agruement and the mix between anger and sadness drove him to rage. He raised his hand and struck the side of my face. I let my gaze fall to the ground and choked back the tears and slowly walked to my room. My best friend is gone and he isn't coming back.
The Skip
I haven't wrote in a couple months. I didn't want to because if I write it then I have to admit to myself that it's not just a bad dream. I am not going to wake up one day and have everything go back to normal. Nothing is going to change unless I decide to change it. My brother is beating me and convincing everyone I did it to myself. Now everyone thinks I am depressed. I can't stay in this situation I need to escape. I have to escape. My brother is a monster and no one believes me. The only option is to leave him. Leave this life. It makes me sad, but I am left with no choice. I can't live like this anymore.
The Opportunity
Today the perfect opportunity arose. A storm made it's way down from Canada to the little county I live in called Starr county. It was just south of Portland, the population is a little under 10,000. The big storm created a major flood with mudslide warnings. My brother decided it would be best if he took me to my parents' log cabin. It's on a higher elevation and should be enough out of the way for us not to have to worry. This is my chance, I'm done taking this crap from my brother. I can't take it anymore. It's time I leave. That is a lot easier said then done. How do I leave this life? Once I leave will I ever come back? Will I ever want to? I needed a plan, but I can't think when Jake is around. I have to always be aware of what he is doing. I decided to escape to my Dad and I's tree house. This tree house was different than others, It had a door with a lock, and windows that closed. It sealed cold air out and kept the warm air in. My dad and I used to camp out here. It was equipped with pillows, blankets, and tons of non-perishable food. I could live out here for a month and still have food. The best part of this tree house wasn't the door not the food. The best part was Jake has no idea where it is. My dad wanted me to have a place to run away to that way just mine. I wanted to cry. Break down and just let in all out, but I can't. I can't give him the satisfaction. I don't know where I'm going to go, but I can't stay here anymore. This part of my life is dead.
The Start
Today was the start of a new friendship. I met this really cute guy named Nicholas while I was walking in the woods. He was really nice and his parents left him with his family cabin when they passed away. The cabin his parents have is just a couple miles up the road from my parent's cabin. He can't be, but a few years older than me. He lives about two hours away from here with his brother Dante who is 21. Deep down I am questioning whether or not this is safe. I mean he seems like a nice guy, but he could also be a creeper. I have to collect more information before I decide.
The Trust
Over the course of a couple days I learned a lot about Nicholas and I trusted him. The only problem is that, that trust turned into fear just with one sentence. "I am a vampire." This is what he said to me today. Can I really believe it? Right now I am in denial. I mean vampires don't exist. This coming from the girl who has been obsessed vampires her whole life. I feel like I should be in awe of him. A real life vampire. The truth was I was terrified. There is just one question that keeps going through my mind. What does he eat? That question is going to eat me alive. I will just have to wait and ask him.
Getting To Know Him
I have known Nicholas for about a week now and this might sound insane, but vampire or not I trust him. I trust him a lot. It may be because I am just desperate. I can't trust anyone right now. My brother, my parents, no one. I am just desperate to have one person I can trust. Just one person. Is that so bad? This might be the stupidest thing ever, but I decided after Nicholas offered that I am going to go live with him. I can't stand living with my brother anymore. I had to get out and if dealing with Nicholas' brother Dante is what I have to deal with then so what.
The Departed
Today is the day. I am leaving this life for good. I am leaving it behind. I am gone. There is only one thing left to do. Say goodbye. I will go back over to the cabin and say goodbye. I am not even worried or sad about it. I am excited. I finally am done with that part of my life. I won't miss it. Today marks the day that I become free. I just need to tell Jake goodbye. If he tries to find me well then I will get the real story out. I am never going back to him. Even if that means I have to destroy Marie Heart. The girl who was best friends with her brother. The one who lived in a world without vampires. This girl is dead and a new girl is alive.
The Leaving
Nicholas got the last few things in his car and we were off. My brother and I came to an agreement. I would disappear and he would tell Mom and Dad that I am going to depression counseling and rehab. They put $10,000 in my account and before I fully leave this life I will take it all out. It should support me long enough while I live with Nicholas. I wonder how bad his brother really is. I mean he is related to warm-hearted Nicholas, how bad can he be? As we drove to his house I realized, I am related to my brother and we are complete opposites now. So maybe Dante is the opposite of Nicholas. That can't be good. Maybe I am just over reacting.
The Past
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The past is what molds us into our future self. My mom used to always tell me "The past sets everything in motion." Makes sense if my parents would have never left I wouldn't be leaving this life behind. Well the past is the past and I am the only one who can set the future in motion. I do that by deciding what happens in the present which turns into the past, and the past sets everything in motion. So from now on the past is gone and I am going to set my future in motion. I am starting fresh and the decisions and mistakes I make now will effect the future. Could that have been anymore confusing?
Dante
My instincts are telling me that I shouldn't trust Dante. He is really creepy and just seems like the bad version of a vampire. I totally understand why Nicholas would need a week to himself. He just talks to me like I am a child. Like I have no idea what I am doing. He said he wants to get to know me, but he seems like he has an alternative motive behind it. I just don't know what it is yet. What I do know is that I can't let my guard down when I am around him. Nicholas thinks that being a vampire is a curse. He wouldn't wish it on anyone. His brother Dante on the other hand embraces his kind. He came home from getting a bite today and still had blood on his face. He killed someone today, I can feel it. What is happening to me? When did I get all these instincts? How can I tell my instincts apart from my feelings? I mean is that even possible? What if this is just my mind over exaggerating the fact that vampires are real? I mean in the books I read not all vampires are nice like Nicholas. So maybe my body is just preparing me to meet the bad kind of vampires. The only question left is, is Dante a bad vampire? My gut tells me yes but, who am I to judge someone I just met. What is my reasoning?
Aggravation
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Snoopy is right some people no matter what they say just immediately aggravate you. This person for me is Dante. I have lived with Nicholas for two weeks and Dante and I are already arguing. It's always about stupid stuff too. One of us says a snide comment and the other one gets upset. Then BOOM! It's become a huge fight. Not only that but it got worse today. He threatened me. I told him he couldn't hurt me because Nicholas would kill him. He just said wait till Nicholas isn't home. Something inside of me is telling me I should be prepared. Even more so know that Nicholas just left to catch a bite and.... Here is Dante.
Moments
Yesterday was one of those moments. Dante entered my room and I could have never guessed what happened next, but thinking back on it, it doesn't surprise me. Dante came into my room and bit my neck. I screamed in pain hoping Nicholas could hear from where ever he was. I remember the pain that shot through my body and the light headed feeling I got just before I passed out. When I woke up Nicholas and Dante were fighting. I feel so weak. Nicholas told me I have to rest for a week due to the loss of so much blood. I never thought Dante would do something like that. I should have saw it coming though. I don't know how, but I am going to stop him from doing it again. This WILL not happen again.
The Slayer
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I decide there is only one way to solve my current problem. I might be mentally strong but, physically I am weak. I need to become a little stronger, but being human just won't cut it. I need to become supernatural. I am about to go all Buffy on that jerk. I asked Nicholas how you become a slayer and he said many different things, but the one that would work best for me is to be spelled by a witch. I was ready for a change, but Nicholas wanted me to make sure I was ready for the challenge. Some vampires make it there mission to kill slayers. He was also worried about me and Dante. I assured him I wouldn't kill Dante, I just want to be able to protect myself. I am meeting with a professional on slayers in a couple of days to make sure this is what I want to do. Man my life is changing really fast. First finding out vampires exist, leaving home, getting bit, and now becoming a slayer.
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So today was interesting. I met the slayer expert who's name alone is enough to make my day strange. He secretary was about as close to a robot as I have ever seen. I still am not to sure if she is or isn't a robot. Mr. Mystery taught me a lot about slayers. The last one died about 10 years ago. He is delighted that I want to become one. He also cautions me to know exactly what it means to be a slayer. The only way to do that is to study the history of the slayers. Like school I have a test on the topic the next time we meet. That gives me a couple days to prepare. Plus he gave me all the materials I need.
Getting off topic to something else. Dante is totally self centered. He thinks the only reason I want to become a slayer is because of him. Yeah he might be the reason the thought entered my mind, but I just want to be able to protect myself from jerks like him. NOT NECESSARILY HIM! Anyway I just wanted to rant about that.
ALSO he thinks that even when I am a slayer I will still not be able to take him. I can't wait to prove him wrong. I can't even imagine how well it would feel to kick his butt.
My Ink
Today I planned on studying all day. I wanted to pass this test. Too bad things didn't turn out as plan. As if they ever do. Today Dante gave me a permanent mark. Something I will have to live with for the rest of my life. Not that I really had a choice in the matter. I was knocked out most of the day. And while I was knocked out you would have never guessed what happened to me. Okay maybe you could by reading the title of my entry. Still I would have never guessed that arrogant jerk would give me a tattoo! I wish that was the worst part too, but it's not. The worst part is what the tattoo says.
I <3 Dante
Hello New, Goodbye Old
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You know what the worst part about Dante being a jerk is? The fact that Nicholas and I decided that the most believable story for our "family" would be Dante being the older brother who is my legal guardian and Nicholas will be my older brother who just graduated. We haven't talk to Dante about it and I really don't want to.
Nicholas freaked out when he saw the bandage around my arm. He was furious with Dante, but what is he going to do?
I am finally changing my look which makes me kinda sad, but also excited. I am excited to start over, new school, new identity, new life. The price to pay for this fresh start is saying goodbye to my old life. I am crazy for thinking that is sad. I should be 100% happy. I hated that life. Part of me is going to miss the brother I once had and my mother and father. Is the price to pay for this new life worth never going back to the old.
The New
I took my test today and I still can't believe I got a PERFECT SCORE!! He said I will be an amazing slayer. He also gave me a slayer starter kit almost. It was equipped with stakes, holy water, garlic, and books. The most interesting part of was when he told me that I would be getting slayer instincts. I don't know when, but he says I will know when it happens.
I had my hair appointment today. I totally changed and look completely different. I now have black with pink streaked hair, that is spiky at the end. I really love it! Also Nicholas gave me a new black leather jacket. That was really nice of him. He is such a good friend.
Then we get to the not so amazing part of my day. The part where we told Dante about being a legal guardian. He took this as yet another opportunity to get on my nerves. He just took the whole legal guardian thing to extremes and is now trying to tell me what to do 24/7.
My new name is Marie Whitmoore. I finally was starting new and I am excited to see where the new leads me.
Dante's Soft Side?
Dante is crazy!!!! He told me today the only way he will be my legal guardian is if I let him act as a parental figure to me. After I finally said fine the first thing he does is forbids me to become a slayer! Then something surprised me. Dante said that I was just going to get myself killed. He almost sounded like he cared. Is it true that there is a soft side to Dante? I sound like a crazy person. Could I really believe that the Dante who has done all this bad stuff could possibly have a soft side?
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